The first overlapping sensation is physical memory. After the Women’s March in New York, I was mostly aware of how much my feet hurt. Pressed tightly against other bodies for five hours, there was never a chance to sit. And as to marching, well, it might have been shuffling, but it more likely appeared as a crowded form of standing. The warmth of other bodies was a help as the wind picked up. The warmth of smiles was a help as great shouts, like waves in a football stadium, passed through the crowd. The smiles were not returned by the forlorn faces of drivers who tried to escape down side streets but were completely swamped by a tsunami of bodies that spilled over every available surface. As I read the banners around me, I noticed a young man carrying roses and asked him what they stood for. He gave me one. They stood for the act of giving joy, he said.

The second sensation, also familiar, is about a confusion of purpose. In New York, as in many cities across the country, the flurry of signs held high by marchers showed bewildering declarations of solidarity that spoke to a throbbing desire to belong. However specific or broad the cause to which each person or group declared allegiance could not matter as much as bringing this desire to the larger crowd. And the larger the crowd the greater the joy, the more irrelevant it felt to feel isolated from each other. In the wake of the march, the finger pointing began. White women, said some critics, had no idea of what it meant to have solidarity with Black Lives Matter, with immigrants, with queer sexuality, with the poor. And besides, some said, it was white women voters who had determined the result of the election. What right did they have to protest now that it was too late?

My strongest memory from 1968, an inexorable sensation of confused sympathy, is that, as an idealistic child, I thought my desire to fight injustice could be seen on my face—and, of course, in my body—because I had showed up in support of this march and this crowd. Since I was an idealistic young white child, however, my face also attracted glares. Being singled out as an enemy because of my race was unfamiliar to me, and yet it served as a useful lesson for the years ahead.

Marching together #WomensMarch - @msmagazine